I had a dream...about being told off by my mum for holding a girls hand

I had this weird nightmare last night which was unlike any I've ever had. It was a dream about cheating on Kathy. Although by cheated I actually just mean held hands with another girl. And by another girl, I actually mean a girl who was in fact Kathy, but in my dream she was playing the part of a distant ex.

The sleep-fact she wasn't Kathy only became clear to me when my mum came out of her house and saw me holding hands with her and asked me what I thought I was doing. And how I could be such an asshole to Kathy. And then she gave me her disappointed face.

It dawned on me in a rush that what I was doing was not cool, and that I was getting married so it was doubly not-cool. And then my asleep brain tried to work out if it was better that I was not yet married and sleep-doing this, or if I was in fact jeopardising my whole awake-future by dream-hand-holding-whoring around. My asleep brain's panic grew and grew and I pushed the non-Kathy Kathy away and went to go tell the "real" Kathy.

The anxiety and panic I felt about telling her and realising I had ruined my life etc was more terrifying than anything I can remember. Even moreso that my many many nightmares about snakes and spiders. Stupid fucking snakes and spiders, one day you will rue the fucking day you messed with my... oh yeah talking about something else.

So then I woke up and felt immense relief that it was all a dream.

I realised this morning my brain was having a pre-wedding talk with me:

DON'T CHEAT! YOU WON'T LIKE IT!

Thanks brain.